It is very difficult and painful, but if you can, I encourage you to read his entire letter posted with the article. Zeller left a gift to all of us by naming his pain.
From The Huffington Post Here:
Bill Zeller, Princeton Grad Student And ‘Brilliant’ Programmer, Dies In Apparent Suicide
First Posted: 01- 7-11 08:40 AM | Updated: 01- 7-11 03:16 PM
Zeller stunned the programming community with a 4,000-word suicide note detailing a childhood of physical and sexual abuse, which he had never before disclosed to anyone.
Bill Zeller, a Princeton Ph.D candidate and renowned internet programmer, died Wednesday from injuries sustained in a suicide attempt. He was 27.